NicolaRae

I've decided to randomly pop in to live journal world.

2004-03-08T06:34:19Z

It seems like the thing to do, especially since I am procrastinating on finishing the paper I have to turn in tomorrow.
So this is what is going on in my head right now:
The kind of shoes you wear says a lot about the kind of person you are. I know that might sound superficial, but seriously, just take note. It really does show something.
I'm so excited that spring is almost here and I can were summer dresses again!
The month of March is the month of getting my shit together. I guess when life gets a little chaotic it is easy to join the chaos but I think that after all the craziness of these past few months, it is time for some serious seriousness. But not too much because too muc drives me a little batty as well.
I like living in such a central spot but the people around snob hill are too normal. I feel a little out of place.
I have a crush on a boy in my history class... he's got nice shoes.

Well, I guess that is it for now. I probably won't write anything in here for another month or three.

Dancin' in the Street

2003-11-03T07:10:00Z

The music is playin and people swayin', oh dancin in the street
It doesn't matter what you wear... as long as you are there. So everybody around the world... come on and dance in the street.

I don't know if that is the words, but it is as close as I could come.

Tonight I was dancing in the street with Julie. It was the Dias Los Martes parade.

I have decided that Halloween is really the New Year. It feels like summer is gone and after all the partying has passed and I can feel the weather get more chilly I start to feel the future looming but and an old layer is shedding. I remember feeling sad when fall first started to show itself and I guess it is because this is a time to say goodbye to the warm summer and the crazy nights where the usual responsibilities don't exist. And this is the time of year when everyone isn't smiling as much and I always see that trait last for a few months until the days become a little longer. This is always the time of year when I start to question myself and escaping is not as available as it is when the weather is warmer. There is one good thing about winter coming. Winter is a time to reflect and learn about your self and so when spring finally does come we are once again ready to release all that has been pent up inside, only this time we do it with a different outlook. I wonder what will be in store for me this winter? Good things, I hope.

nicolarae @ 2003-10-31T01:01:00

2003-10-31T08:03:06Z

if you know how to be a true playa you gotta know how to play..right now tina and i are drunk, on sebby's computer in tina's living room...... veanne's cd is hella funny... please dont take my sunshine away....

i dont know the song, but like a true trouper i keep singing...,

its tina vs. sebby drinking contests v2. so far, it is neck and neck... after dinner (yes dinner, i know it is midnight!) we will go to valley street and therese will finish dying veanne's hair..,

haha nicola is doing a flashlight rave!!

boom boom boom boom, i want you in my room...

haha good times, good times...

step to this bitch i dare you

nicolarae @ 2003-10-27T19:51:00

2003-10-28T04:12:59Z

Last night I went to the Sunset boat party. It was kind of boring until I started drinking and didn't give a fuck if my hot pink, tight fitting, high heeled slip on Fornarina's were killing my feet to the point where I couldn't even walk in them. Whatever... they were hot. A few drinks later I was ushered off the boat to a cab taking us to the Top. I think I had more to drink when I got there and then got invited to the opera and by that point EVERYTHING seemed like such a good idea that I accepted other, more mind altering substances as well. Not really what I had planned for a Sunday night, but my life never really is that predictable. Some how going to Oakland seemed like a good idea and so... I went to Oakland, except didn't really realize what I did until I got there. The good news is that I went to a farm that had chickens and alligators! The bad news is that I eventually did realize I did not want to be in Oakland but there was no one sober enough in the house to take me home so I got home at about 7:00 on a monday night. Hmm... brings me back to when I was a 16 year old raver... minus the really pissed off mother waiting for her 16 year old daughter to come home. Yuck... I feel like such a smelly raver. Ok... I need to go take a shower.

We are all together but alone

2003-10-25T19:37:43Z

The universe boggles my mind sometimes. People boggle my mind. We are just these insignificant beings compared to the universe at large but we have the capacity to feel and make ourselves so much more than that. And here we are, but we really don't even know where 'here' is. Sometimes I think about the patterns of the universe and how it is compared to a cell and then I wonder if there are tiny little planets in my own cells that have an existence carried by me. Where does it start and where does it end? It is kind of crazy to think that there might be little beings running around living their lives on my body and on someone or something else’s body I am just a tiny entity of their body, and they don't even know I exist.
Sometimes thinking about all the unknowns of the universe can make so much more sense then right here on our own little cell. Here, all information is internal our own minds and bodies are left to judge and be judged but nothing about perception is a fact, it is only something left up to you to decide if it is true or not. On some level I think everyone can relate to one another because we all know what it feels like to be happy, sad, or angry and hopefully, even if we do not all get along, we can have some empathy for everyone because we are human and that is something that makes us all the same but completely different at the same time. Just like our physical bodies are to the universe. I think that sometimes people block out their emotion because it is a lot to deal with but like the concrete, it exists, we just can't see it. I guess we all have our own individual lessons to learn and through each other we assert those lessons on to one another. I guess this is something that takes patience and a willingness to see your own flaws in order to be introspective for a moment and realize what it is that 'you' need in order to grow.

This test is bullshit...

2003-09-30T04:24:34Z

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are you sexy? by jeska

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Tina told me I have to write down my dreams

2002-11-07T20:24:23Z

And do put it in live journal.

I was jumping on this giant trampoline with an old friend of mine from highschool, *Cocoa* but there were all these thug guys saying "hey baby, come jump with us" and so we were like "no, lets go." Then my mom appears and invites Courtney (cocoa) and me to go to the Caribbeans and then to Ireland. We went to the convenient store and got candy for our trip and then my mom reappears and leads us back to the thug guys while making me hold on to her sweater. We leave the thug guys and go on our trip and I come back and go to work, which is about ten minutes away walking distance from my house. I walk up the street and there are these two girls who are probably about 13. As we walk by they are staring at me so I say hi and continue walking. As I walk past them I am go back in time like 15 seconds and walk past them again. This happens about three or four more times and each time becomes more and more sarcastic and cynical. Then I went back in time again to be at the point where I would normally walk past the 13 year old girls but instead of walking past them I found a girly retail store where Jeff and Steve were working. I stopped by and said hi but they would not let me come in because I had coffee, so I just stood outside and talked to them. The girls walked by again but they were smiling and Jeff and Steve and becoming really flirtatious.

Thats all I remember.... I don't really think there is much of a point to this dream.

Sunday Morning Boredom continued....

2002-05-19T17:56:16Z

Which Empire Records Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

DAMNIT!

Sunday Morning Boredom

2002-05-19T17:49:38Z

Are you a ho? Find out @ She's Crafty

what? I'm not a label ho!

Who's Your Movie Sidekick? Find out @ She's Crafty

nicolarae @ 2002-05-10T18:16:00

2002-05-11T01:16:41Z

Which SFRaver are you?

nicolarae @ 2002-05-10T18:05:00

2002-05-11T01:06:09Z

Which Piercing are you?

nicolarae @ 2002-04-19T19:22:00

2002-04-20T02:41:13Z

Um... sorry Lydia.. I'm being a traitor... So whaaaat are yoooou gunna do about it? No... I will write in Dummy cuz Dummy is like WAY cooler. I'm really tired and my legs are tingly.

Heh... last night I went to the rock. Gerry went to the rock too. Gerry was from Emerysville..... *blank stare* Oh... and I am growing a penis! Penisgrowth.com. And yeah... I'm serious. Don't even try to understand me right now, I am in a totally random mood. This is just how tired Nicola's act after they have had a long day.

nicolarae @ 2002-04-17T22:26:00

2002-04-18T05:33:17Z

My computer screen keeps mooing at me? what does that mean? I push the x button and it says MOOOOOOOOOOO. I turned the sound to make jungle noises when you open and close the windows, but why is it mooing at me?

I'm stuck. I want to write in Dummy but I know no one reads that... and now that I have one of these live journals I need to do something with it. I guess I will just write pointless posts about this and I can tell everyone how my lips stinging really bad because they got burnt when I went snowboarding on Sunday. ANd now they are peeling!

nicolarae @ 2002-04-13T13:30:00

2002-04-13T20:44:21Z

So, now I have joined the live journal junkies. I was just feeling left out about not being able to read private entries just because I did not have a live journal and couldn't be on anyones friends lists!

I don't feel much like writing right now. I am thinking more about my shower that I am going to be taking in the very near future and how I need to get out and enjoy the sun. so... I'm outta here.